" So many times "

So many times,my mind warned me about the way i was following…
So many times my mind told me that I was opening an hole in my heart….
So many times my mind showed me the reasons beyond the obvious…
So many times my mind tried to keep my track in the opposite direction…
Yet,my heart kept me going in search of a dream,of a curse that would haunted me forever…
Yet,my heart kept me going on in search of the rainbow castle in the middle of my madness…
Through this quest I just only found pain,deceit,sorrow and unhappiness that almost kill me….
How can someone be so monstruous? so weak? how someone dares to fill another’s heart without having the courage of giving it the power of changing?
Yet, my heart closed the eyes blames itselve in fade,in the tides of the sea,remaining close as a key of the humanity…..
Yet,the castle was only an illusion in the dark reign of my madness in a world which disappeared beyond the rainbow….
Now, I must face my fade and find the salvation of my ugly world of despair…
Now,I must pick up the pieces and open the door to that new mountain which is appearing in the fog of my anger….
So many times my mind…..